HISB: Facebook & Overthinking.


Facebook is like a sitcom. A 30-minute one. Only the best things make it through. So you can see only the tiny bit (which are always the best ones) of one's life on facebook.
And of course, in the right mind,you won't update about how bone crushing self-doubts cloud your thoughts are.

Right?

Because you want to show the world what you are. It's like your online persona. " Hey everyone I am happy and likable". Bullshit facebook. Bullshit you.

That's why I prefer twitter (if you read my past posts, I used to hate twitter, because I didn't understand the concept) . But now I understand why Twitter > Facebook. It's more diverse. In what sense? More diverse in how people express their thoughts. It looks less like a sitcom. More like a matrix stuff. Hahahaha. Timeline bergerak ala-ala dalam cerita matrix tu. Penuh dengan post yang suka duka provoking.

*sigh*

Why the hell am I making an entry of what I think about FB and Twitter?

I know, I am an over-thinker. That's what I am. And trust me I am trying to break the patterns. I constantly keep reminding myself; "Thinking can't replace actions". So as for now, I will try my best to be present. Stop (constantly) regretting the past, and stop (constantly) worrying about what's gonna happen in Tommorowland.

Wish me luck? =)

HISB: Kembali.

Woosh.

Tora kembali lagi. Eh silap. Ojamoja kembali lagi!

Aku memerlukan satu platform untuk memberitahu dunia apa aku belajar.

Twitter? Ah apa sangat boleh aku sampaikan dengan 140 patah perkataan. Aku makan. Aku tidur. Aku suka. Aku duka. Same shit, different day kekdahnya.

Facebook? Aku benci Facebook. Penuh dengan manusia yang mengjengkelkan. Tah kenapa mereka berada di friend list aku pun aku kurang faham. Mungkin aku seperti kamu, suka berlakon, oh aku ramai kawan. Lihatlah, aku membuat status di facebook ramai yang menyokong. Sukanya aku. Secara tidak lansung, benda-benda seperti ini memberi aku some sort of ego boosting yang aku rasa aku tidak perlu pun sebenarnya. Rasa seperti disayangi. Rasa seperti diambil tahu. Ah facebook, mainan dunia yang aku rasa tidak penting pun dalam hidup aku. Sebab in the end, di dalam kehidupan sebenar, bila kita gembira ramai menghampiri, bila kita berduka, eh mana semua orang? Ah, dunia. Biasalah kan?

Blogger? THE BEST PLACE EVAH. Tutup je ruangan komen. Nah. Aku boleh tulis apa aku suka.Suka duka. Duka suka. Ah whatever. Apa-apa sahaja. Freedom of speech (as long as aku tidak menyentuh isu-isu sensitiviti MELEIS dan seangkatan dengannya, no worries MELEIS, kalau aku kacau sensitiviti kau pun, aku akan buat ayat kau pun susah nak faham, sebab mengikut kata survey, MELEIS tidak suka membaca benda-benda yang complex. Heh.)

Kalau kau nak kutuk aku. Kutuk belakang-belakang. Jangan sampai aku tahu. Aku menulis di blog sebagai ekspresi diri. Ala macam kau ekspres diri guna muzik. Guna seni. Guna politik? Guna apa-apa.

So apa patut aku cerita ceriti. Erm. Nothing comes in mind so far. Padahal sebenarnya dalam otak aku ini ada macam some sort of string theory going on aka serabut gila babi. Nak surf-surf wikipedia pun susah, sebab sekarang major informational websites tengah memblack out kan diri, sebagai tanda protest terhadap SOPA.

Apa itu SOPA?

Stop Online Piracy Act.

Apa guna dia? Erm imagine macam ni lah. Kalau bill itu ditukarkan sebagai undang-undang di USA, kita boleh lah cakap bye bye kat 4chan, 9gag, wikipedia, reddit, I Can Has Cheezburger atau apa-apa website yang kita selalu kunjungi for LULZ. Kenapa? Ye lah kau ingat gambar yang mereka share tu hak mereka ke? Muzik yang mereka share itu? Informasi? Apa-apa pun. Dah kata share, nampak sangat benda itu pada asalnya adalah hak orang lain. Kan?

Kalau undang-undang itu benar- benar di keluarkan, tak ke macam haram. Macam mana kita nak bergelak ketawa secara sukasukaheyhey. Zaman makin maju. Nak bergelak ketawa secara free di dalam dunia internet yang sepatutnya FREE DAN OPEN, pun boleh masuk penjara tahu. Tahukah anda UN menobatkan internet sebagai satu hak asasi manusia. Yes, macam freedom of speech dan access to clean water. So apa SOPA BUAT NI? Menarik hak asasi manusia sesuka hati?

Well aku harap kerajaan Amerika tak perlu lah nak berlagak macam kerajaan China sangat. Relax lah der. Aku nak belajar banyak benda kut. Jangan lah sekat orang-orang macam aku please. Kitaorang just nak stimulate kan sel-sel otak kitaorang secara fun.

So fuck SOPA. And you too should fuck SOPA.

HISB: Amalina dan Legging bunga-bunganya.


Gosh. Cerita Amalina is like everywhere. Masuk berita katanya. What the fuck?

And it's 2012 people. Where's your thinking cap? Simpan dalam laci ka sampai malas betul nak amik, tapi rajin nak mencaci mencela sesiapa tah.



Oh Meleis. Stop being stupid. Dunia bukan berputar kerana engkau Melayu yang suci. Tidak sama sekali.

HISB: Don't be sad.


Whenever people tell me that they are depressed, there's this one question keeps popping in my head looking for an answer; what's the difference between being sad and being depressed? Erm. Erm. I guess when you are sad you can still be hopeful and determined. But whenever you get depressed...you feel generally hopeless, defeated and stop to care about reality. Erm erm.
The thing is; depression always starts from being just sad. It's just that when your sadness lasts longer than what it should be...then you need to do something. See a doctor or.. just do something!!

The last time I was in a depression state was a long long time ago, in my early 20s, when I was still at Penn State. I didn't feel like meeting people. I didn't feel like socializing. I didn't feel like eating. I didn't feel like doing anything. Alhamdullilah, I managed to save myself from being more and more depressed just by guling-guling in the room alone. Hahaha. Bodoh jugak sebenarnya. Because it's not a right thing to do. Tapi sihat je lepas tu. =P

Then after Uni, OK lah macam tak pernah depressed. Last time rasa depressed sebab banyak assholes kat universiti. Hahah. After uni, I TRIED to choose my friends wisely. I tried ok. Haha. Of course lah ada sedikit sebanyak terkenal beberapa assholes. Hehe. But these assholes usually don't make feel sad. They make me feel angry. Very angry. Haha. So whenever I'm angry, I just cry to let the steam out. Dan masih kawan dengan assholes itu semua cuma tidak rapat. Dan selalu paksa diri to feel indifferent towards them. Because I would rather conserve my energy than hating someone. Yep, the feeling of hatred practically has to consume your mind and body. So my logic is, why should you waste your energy for assholes? Right?

And truth to be told, it's kinda hard for me to get very very sad. Sad, yes. Very very sad, no.

What is my coping mechanism?

Senyum seindah suria yang membawa cahaya.

Because I read somewhere, if you smile,you actually fool your brain to think that you are happy.As a result, the brain will release all the happy chemicals. PROFIT!! I think it's like a self-fulfilling prophecy.
If you believe in something, it's more likely to happen. Remember it's all in your brain. Hehehe. Or maybe the easiest way out of sadness/depression is..to redha or pasrah.

Do you know what is the difference between redha and pasrah?

Redha itu ikhlas. Pasrah itu menyerah.


HAHAHAHA TERIMA KASIH OMBAK RINDU.

Ok enough of this so-called "let's get motivated" entry. This entry is actually for me. Sebab kalau bukan kita nak motivate diri sendiri, siapa lagi kan? I miss babbling bout serious stuff on my blog. Because in real life I'm not that serious. *truestory.jpg*

Good night!

HISB: Why women date assholes



Because assholes are usually:

1. Interesting
2. Confident.

Yep.

Assholes' modus operandi:

go to where the fun is and leave if it's not fun

And usually assholes are..good looking.
Ergh. THIS IS USUALLY THEIR WINNING POINT.

But.. seriously people, it's not asshole we women are looking for. We just need men who are interesting and confident. And...most assholes do have those qualities, until the point of we actually overlook their assholish behavior just because of the qualities. Sad but true. Sigh. But I don't want an asshole as a boyfriend. But to get a non-asshole, first I have to be a non-bitch? Haha. You look out for what you think you deserve. If you deserve shit, you put up with shit. Right? I can't put up with shit, so I should stay away from shit. Erm. Ah relationship is complicated. That's why I'm still single. Or maybe because nobody wants me? I am the shit? *shrugs*

HISB: Hey 2012!

Minna-san!! Happy new year!!!!

Maafkan ojamoja kerana sukasukaheyhey menutup blog. Bukan apa, hilang mood sekejap nak kongsi apa-apa kat sini. Heeeeee. Dan sekarang, ojamoja kembali lagi!!!

So apa cerita?

Mm ok entri yang terakhir mengenai comic fiesta kan? Ha nak dijadikan cerita sehari sebelum CF, suara ojamoja sukasukaheyhey hilang! Agak WTF jugak lah di situ. Dah lah jadi opening band!! Sheesh. By the time hari kejadian, suara kembali 70% kut. Macam haram. Hahaha. Dah la kebetulan lagu-lagu kena nyanyi stock tarik tinggi punya. Menyampah mak! But I managed la to nyanyi all the songs. Perit tetapi boleh. Sebelum perform inform dulu audience supaya mereka tak terkejut dengar suara maknyah gua. Hehehehe. But OK lah, so far takda baca review mana-mana kutuk suara aku. Maybe sebab aku bagitahu awal-awal masalah suara. Bijak!!! XD

Time Machine Medley (16 lagu anime)



Lagi apa yek? Ha masa sempena Krismas buat cover "Baby It's Cold Outside" sempena Krismas, dengan adik kesayangan, Amal Najaa and her beau.


Baby It's Cold Outside - Oja,Amal,Ruiz



Hehe biasalah ojamoja siapa tak kenal, suka syok sendiri buat video apa-apa tah. Janji wa happy! Rasa macam nak tulis pasal 2011. Well, erm 2011 adalah tahun yang so-so lah untuk ojamoja. Penuh ups and downs. So dia jadi macam balance. =D I think? Ah well, I have to paksa diri to think positive or else I'm gonna break down and menangis dalam bilik sorang-sorang. Haha.

Resolusi 2012 ojamoja:
  • Kurangkan menangis!!!! Tahun lepas banyak gila menangis. Sebab kakak meninggal lah, kenal dengan orang gila selfish lah. Macam-macam lah! Tahun ni nak menjadi lebih gagah!
  • Banyakkan membaca. Supaya boleh belajar banyak benda, dan boleh share kat sini. =D
  • Declutter life.I need to filter the people in my life. People who matter vs people who don't matter. People who make me unhappy should just GTFO.
  • Tak nak dwell on the past so much.
  • Nak take care of myself dulu before I can help anyone else. *sigh* paling susah ni.
  • Basically what I want for 2012 is a good mental health, itu je. Eh jap jap. Lupa..nak $$$$ banyak jugak!!! Hahaha. XD
  • And because I'm hitting 30 next year, so I think maybe it's time to think about future dengan seriousnya. *sigh* Such is life.

I guess itu je kut. Haha resolusi macam bagus je. I just want to be happy and fuwa-fuwa, that's all. What about you guys? =) Sebelum mengakhiri entri yang bosan ini, nah video mengenai 2012 dan end of the world bullcrap. Haha. <3 <3